Losing Your Daddy and Finding Your Father

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

I can remember vividly the moments of growth I have had in my spiritual life with my Heavenly Father. As is often the case, my heart was tugged and the soul stretched. It brought a fire, a renewed spirit, and a drive to seek more of Him and less of me. I sought wisdom from those moments in seasons that lay ahead, gained encouragement from those in the same boat, and, at the end of the day, had the constant of my parents to ask all and any questions.

Looking back, I can honestly say I never, ever experienced such a stretching of my faith, brokenness of my weary body, and reality of a shattered heart as I did from the floor of a Georgia hospital. A day I fell unveiled before the cross and clung to His comfort as I screamed out to my Heavenly Father to heal my daddy. 

It has been an overwhelmingly wearying year since.

The truth of my family’s broken heart is real and raw - there isn’t one day that goes by where I don’t replay times with my daddy. A random yet bliss-filled memory comes to mind every day. Most often, I am left speechless by how different life is without him. It affects the whole family and seeing my mom through a lens without her spouse, as a “widow,” deeply aches my heart.

Amidst the tears, bursts of shouting out to the air, and my heart crumbling from the bitterness building up - I know each emotion is felt by my Heavenly Father. He holds us so close and tight! We need to cling daily to His promises and know His plans are Greater than ours. And although sometimes we don’t understand it, He is always holding our hand tight and He goes ahead of us.

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He is your Almighty Father who loves you to the core. He will never forsake you. He is the rock. The deliverer. The redeemer. Our Father. He is Love.

On days when it seems my walls are crashing in as the grief rips apart my heart, I know on the solid ground I stand and in that moment I lean on His power. He doesn’t expect us to go through anything alone. He captures every tear and makes a record of it. He is closer than our very own breath. He is our Father who loves and desires us. Seek with abandonment, chase after, and long for Him. He fills our hearts with joy.

He promises…

I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices. You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. John 16:20 

Megan was born and raised in a small town in Pennsylvania. She is the youngest of three siblings. She is an oldie but a goodie kinda' gal. Nick at Nite reruns are her favorite and her go-to is I Love Lucy. She graduated on May 6, 2007, and married sweet Aaron on May 26, 2007, at the ripe age of 22. She loved working for Make-A-Wish Foundation of Greater PA and Southern WV as Communications Assistant. She now has the great joy of being mommy to her sweet son. God has surely made himself known over the past few months, as Megan has come to a point where she has no other choice but to seek, chase, and yearn for God daily. Her dad was called Home last August after a courageous battle with cancer. She is clinging to her Heavenly Father now more than ever before. Writing and running have helped her during this grieving journey. Megan looks forward to how God is going to use her for His story as it is all “For His Glory.”

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